For two years I’ve been working at this company in a sort of “rehabilitation” fashion. The first year I was just sort of there, nothing was official and I just showed up and did my thing (getting no money for it).
The second year I finally got this special kind of contract that they offer to people like me that is government funded. The whole point of the contract is to allow sick people to get back into a working life and you can mess about with the hours you work and find the amount that works for you.
It’s really a neat thing for people like me, and for the employers as well. Since it’s government funded the employer only have to pay 20% of your salary – even if you end up working 100%.
I was hoping for one more year of this kind of contract, because I’m not at 100% yet (I was close in early summer – but I was doing so badly my doctor/therapist had me scale back down to 50% for now). And I could have had one as well – had they not changed the rules and decided to enforce them.
Now the company where I work needs this special thing, which they don’t have – and obviously won’t get just for one person who’s not even a “proper” employee. It’s not a small thing either, but a really big one. So basically.. when my contract ends on September 30th – that’s it. I can no longer work in the place where I’ve been for two years.
This makes me sad of course. And frustrated. And so many other feelings. But there is nothing I can do about it. You can’t really get the government to back on their rules. So it’s final.
I don’t quite know what I’ll do after the end of September. I have to find a new place to work – but it has to 1) have the thing this company does not 2) actually be okay to take someone like me in (let’s be fair, it’s not just like hiring a new employee).
It’s difficult because I live in a very small town as well and we don’t have that many companies to begin with.
I’m feeling pretty worried and stressed about the whole situation (how could I not?), but I’m trying to take a deep breath and think that it will sort itself out. It’ll be all right. But then the other voice inside me reminds me of all the problems that come with this.
But! Deep breaths.. It’ll be all right. It has to be.